This pain in my stomach reminds me of lessons learned. From this book of life another page is turned. Another page, another chapter; of a book that probably should be burned. I’ve been loved; I’ve been lost; seeking happiness at any cost. With all my ventures I have learned many things. Even if you are miserable the birds will always sing, the sun will always rise, days will go on with many beautiful sunsets and the only thing that remains the same is change. To evolve is to grow, never stop growing. Constant and never ending growth has always been my objective. This is not mandatory; this is an elective. Some people find comfort at a certain level. I wish you nothing more than for you to be happy. If you are not happy, why aren’t you? What changes would make you happy? Is that what you think would truly make you happy? What are you waiting for? Go for the glory. Life is too short to complain, take action. Just be sure that whatever you choose is thought out carefully. Consider the end result of actions before you make them. Hindsight is 20/20 and sometimes the grass isn’t always greener once you get there. The worst thing that can happen to someone is regret. Lamentation of the soul can make you feel like a fool. Intrusion onto familiar ground can be dangerous if there is “no trespassing” signs known to be posted. Be clear in your expressions, confusion is created at the root not in the fruit. Listen to what is said not what you want to hear. Say what you feel when it is real not after it has evolved into something else. Love is understanding and patient, never demanding or contemptuous. If you love, I mean truly love, ask yourself what do you expect, plain and simple. Are you obtaining everything you ever looked for? If not, what is it that is truly missing? Clearly define it, is it something that is fair to expect? Would it be okay for somebody to expect the same from you? If so, are you providing what you expect, out of love, to those that you say you love? Never expect more than what you are willing to give. Are you willing to give? The vastness of selfishness can be a very lonely place to be. I know this. I have been selfish most of my life. In the past, my attitude has been, “this is how it is, if you don’t like it there is the door.” Until one day I noticed that I was alone, they all walked out the door. I have finally been humbled through solitude and remorse. I refuse to live my life that way any longer. I am willing to listen, attempt to understand other views and opinions. I am willing to admit I do not know everything, and with that, I know there are still many more lessons for me to learn. With this knowledge, I already feel wiser and have a sense of warmth coming from within. The warmth, I think, comforts the pain in my stomach. How’s your tummy?
